Amazing Grace, my chains are gone!

THe last thing Joe and I did last night before we fell asleep, was worship God and listen to a sermon by our favorite online pastor, Perry Noble! Joe and I have not found a church home yet.. But we do worship together and listen to online sermons. We need Christ. I CAN NOT live apart from Christ. When I put him in the backseat, instead of the driver's seat..my life is just a mess. I LOVE JESUS CHRIST so much!! I want to scream it from my porch stoop! I feel Him in every nerve ending in my body..every muscle, every organ, every blood cell.. I LOVE JESUS CHRIST! I am so thankful..Oh LORD, I am so thankful for YOU! FOr your grace! For your forgiveness! For your LOVE! Lord...I ask for forgiveness for all the hurt I've caused you. My sinfulness..You know my sins Lord...Please have mercy on me..please forgive me! I want to be pure of heart for you Lord! I want to be blameless and pure of heart!
I woke up this morning..feeling that JOY and Peace and LOVE that I haven't felt in a while! You know why? Because last night..I asked for forgiveness and I once again cleaned out my closet..washed my chalked-board, bleached my blanket....white as snow! I am forgiven! YIPEEEEEE! It feels so good. : ) Ahhhhhh ..I'm on a spiritual high... the kind that comes from the Holy Spirit..who is dancing around in my heart this morning! I am praising GOD!
I have had chains that have held me in bondage and they have been broken! I am no longer held captive! I am set free! My FATHER in Heaven loves me! In his eyes I am beautiful and good! I don't have to be perfect and good for anybody else..only for God! You see..I've always felt like I had to be good..good in everyone's eyes.. and I never felt like I could be good enough. I've never felt loved enough..by anyone. I've always felt stupid and ugly and like I've done the wrong thing. I felt incredibly insecure..and..geez, I can't even begin to explain it. Just..not good enough. Guilty. Horribly guilty. If someone would critisize me..it would kill my spirit. WORDS..have always been like arrows to me. One unkind word...would wound me horribly and I would have a hard time recovering! I kept it hidden though..on the outside I would smile and try to be happy..but on the inside I've cried.
But TOday.. I feel such strength. I am in bondage to nobody!! I am ME! Love me or Hate me.. it's your choice! I am proud of who I am ....CHRIST'S daughter! I will not give up..I will not give in ..any longer!! Lord give me strength! : )
Oh friends..I am so excited for this new journey, we May be beginning! Please continue to pray...pray that we keep God first..and keep relying on him and humbling ourselves to His Will! This is the song that JOe and I listened to last night..and it just..well it just permeated my soul

These are the lyrics!!! Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed
My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy reigns
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbear to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine